I'm so tired of needing that person.  When there is something wrong she is sometimes there...but not always..I thought that was what a friend was for?  She is always with him...I think I could be jealous of him..he always has her to himself.  Ever since he got back we haven't spent that much time together.  Even though I have someone I push him aside to make time for her.  And when I wanna go somewhere with her and her other person I am called rude for asking. - even if I've never asked to be taken anywhere by him before.  I let her use my phone to call him...because I want her to be happy..she can't be happy without him.  She wouldn't be happy just having me as her friend and him not as her boyfriend.  I am so sick of needing her there for me when she isn't.  I call her and she isn't home.  Just when I need someone ANYONE the most---I go to a friend.  Lately it has been her.  I'm starting to feel like I have no one again.  Jennifer is in Gulfport with her mom and she can't come home...and now the only person I can run to isn't home...they have been together every day since he got back....I don't know how to tell her that they really could get sick of each other if they keep continuing to do this-but no one asked me so it's really none of my business...oh well...I guess I'll go on as the lonely only child who has no one to call...it won't get me down..I'll survive...I'll work it out all on my own.  Even though I'm faking a smile I'm still considered smiling..I'm going to Hibbetts...

Tiff

Wow well the past few days have been pretty fun.  On Tuesday I finally got to spend some time with Scott..yay!! We saw 50 First Dates..that is sucha cute movie... Yesterday I went "back to school shopping" and I got some shirts from AE and a few pairs of shorts..they have a really big sale right now.  I can't wait til guard camp and band camp.  It is going to be sooooo much fun.   I'm really really bored and I wanna go to wallymart so I can buy some socks...hmm..Well out for now-kendall if you read this call me.

-Tiff

Ok well today I got up and went swimming with Kendall and Jen...we worked out too..haha I got Jen swimming again!  My poor Jen had a fear of deep water...now she doesn't!! GOOOO US!  Anyways then after that Jen and Kendall and I went to see a movie.  We saw White Chicks...I would recommend seeing it if you want a good laugh but if you aren't into 2 FBI agents going undercover and turning into white girls then don't go.  It was ok...I give it 3 stars..I'm so tired...I wish Scott would call...oh well better not get my hopes up....I miss him...raaa..sucks majorly. 

-Tiff

Where to start...hmm..well Wednesday I went to the Y with Kendall and LT.  Kendall came over after that and we had a serious one on one.  She and I caught up on a lot..we are much closer now..anyways..then I spent the night at Kendall's house and we made some cds and watched lightning and...typical stuff...anyways then that morning we woke up and went to the Y again...fun fun fun fun.  Annndd after that Kendall came over again and her mom came and picked her up with her little midget's (Toby's) girlfriend...I think that dog hates me...anyways..Thennnn..Today I thought we had a guard meeting so I got up at 8. OMG THAT IS SO EARLY!! Ahh..anyways..I came to find out that we didn't have a guard meeting...it is so aggrivating..what the crap?  I mean this guard thing is so unplanned...GOSH! Ugh...after that I  went to wallymart with my mom and got some food and went the Y.....once again.....with Kendall and LT...we worked out some more and we got some snowcones..OMG that was sooo good...It's called Wedding Cake...omgomgomg so good..anyways then I came home and slept for a little while...now I'm trying to plan my big weekend...for once I would kind of like to get away from home one weekend...I don't like being stuck in one place for a long period of time...maybe it's just me.  I start to get agitated and I start to feel like everything I do is limited...and it just seems to get stuffy..agh..idk..oh well...Scott has only called me twice out of 5 days..I think he should look into a cell phone plan...Love all-

-Tiff

Well today was quite interesting..I got up at about 8 and then got ready to go to the dentist...I had no cavities or anything wrong..go me.  Then my mom took me to McDonalds...my fav food place...and we got breakfast.  Then I came home and called Kendall back to find out that we weren't going to go to the Y today because it was all bad weather outside and stuff...so I've pretty much been doing absolutely nothing all day..I wish I had a job or something....I can't keep spending all summer sitting around..ahhhh whatever..bye

-Tiff

Hmmmm...well today went pretty well I suppose...I woke up at about 9 and then I got ready to go to the YMCA with Kendall..We got up there around 11:30 and went swimming..we saw a few people from school and hung around a little..then we went to the gym where there were all these weight lifters people..I felt so stupid going in there because I'm such a weakling...really.  After about an hour and a half of working out I feel pretty refreshed..I think exercising relieves a lot of unwanted stress...hmm...  That was my first time working out and it was actually pretty fun.  I seem to do those kind of things better if I have someone to do them with me.  So I guess I've had a pretty good day...I hope the rest of it is good too..Love all-

-Tiff

Wow yesterday was a lotta fun....I went over to Farren's house and then we walked to wallymart and stuff....Baby life jackets on head...I should start a new fashion trend.  Then some weird guys followed us around...freaky...egh..we listened to all kinds of music...weird harmony stuff.  That was her idea.  Then we went back to Farren's house and chased her lil bro and sis around and planned a slow death -haha I wish- for this girl that we both hate..weird freaky girl...hair..cough cough-  Then Casey came over and we sat around and then my mom came and got me... Ren we should all go to studio 90 Monday..woopwoop!  Then Friday to Fireworks!! WoOOOoOO!  Anyways...Scott and I went to see a movie today..we saw Shrek 2...that movie is soooooo cute.  Then we ate at chick-fil-a.  I got the chicken sandwich..mmm I love that place.  Then my mom picked us up and we went to my house for a while and then took him home.  We saw Kendall and LT at the mall..Kendall most def was happy to see me...the usual Kendall...hyper kid..gotta love her..and LT was pretty awwwww..she is so growin up! Awwww my lil LT!!!!  Anyways...out for now..I got some thinkin to do...Love all!

-Tiff

Why can't he just leave me the hell alone?  He thinks I'm stupid..like I was born yesterday..I might not have that much common sense but I'm pretty smart when it comes to finding out who the is talking to me and who isn't.  It's pretty obvious when both screennames always sign off and on at the same exact time...each time.   Why can't he just confront me himself if he wants to know all of these answers?  He just needs to know that I don't like him..he is not my friend but he is not my enemy and I want him to LEAVE ME ALONE!  I am happy for the first time in forever and he is trying to destroy everything.  He deserved everything he got...I don't stick around very long to put up with crap anymore.  Maybe he learned..who knows...even if he did I still don't like him...out for now

-Tiff

Well today was pretty boring..I mainly just sat around the house all day and watched my mom watch soap operas...BORING OMG...anyways..I feel kind of idk...I really want to go shopping or go see a movie but Idk..I really need some time to myself to think about things..blah..I just need to get my head together..It's like when I try to be a good friend and do the right thing I can't do something good enough..This friend probably doesn't even know that I am talking about her..she probably thinks everything is good...but I just need to talk with her..I can't keep this inside of me much longer..I just feel betrayed..and I don't know why I write in this journal because it's not like anyone reads it....out

Tiff